Your farce gets betrayed by the flicker in your eyes.

A product of a sudden outburst, forgive me.

This week was full of contemplation for me, as I my head is swarmed with thoughts, and my heart is in a storm of confusion.

It gets dizzy.

I share with you my favorite quote from my favorite classic movie of all time, My Bestfriend’s Wedding.

“When you love someone, you say it. Or else, the moment just passes you by.”

I understand how wounds take time to heal. How fears are slow to subside. Everybody gets hurt. No one ever told me, or probably no one will say this, that getting hurt was a wonderful experience. All in all, it sucks. But then, what if wallowing in it causes you to go blind and just let another chance for a new beginning walk right past you?
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It’s the time of the year again when I am most happy. The seas are calling me. I always, always embrace the season that defines who I am with utmost joy, because it is all about endless sunshine and comforting solace.

Desolation need not visit me in my dreams. I dream walking in an endless stretch of sand and quiet. The rays of the sun caress my skin with warmth that makes me surrender and sigh. I love my summer. The turquoise waters seek to cool off my worries, while the fine sand gently scrapes off my heartbreaks. I am cleansed. I am new.
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Just as I was about to drown in the abyss of desolation,

You found me.

I know, I know, that for the longest time, I have been struggling alone, and depending on no one but myself.

But then, in the most unexpected circumstance, you suddenly tell me that I can rest my head on your shoulder.

I admit defeat. I need saving. And you just did.

If you don’t want me anymore

I only ask one thing from you

If I ever meant anything to you ,

Utter a silent prayer

That my heart will go numb and surpass this pain

Because I feel being crushed over and over again

With every single blink, that you ignore me.

A really good friend of mine once told me, that it was unhealthy to thrive in lovesongs.

Yes, I would have to admit, love songs are just beautiful.

They put into beautiful melody whenever my heart tries to tell me something and I just can’t comprehend sometimes.

How amazing is it, that you can put feelings, sometimes unexplainable, into words?

Grasp them, identify them, and just know, that your feelings are indeed real. They’re not just some burning feeling, some sudden pang in your heart, that goes away in time. Or maybe not.

You have a best friend, that knows exactly what you think, or how you feel during your happiest moments.

But then, what if every single love song, just reminds you of him?

What if something wonderful starts to plague you, and torture you?
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