Just this morning, that I have requested the office to give me a leave, some sort of a day off ( even if this is a holiday ), I woke up and chose to remain quiet and not speaking for the first two hours as I surfed the net. Even if I’m not in my work state, I don’t think I could ever live without a computer.

Then, I chose to play a song - Sarah Bareilles’ Gravity. In my previous entry, I have expressed my affinity to this song as it touched my heart in more ways than one. I didn’t know that as I played it today, a rush of emotions came into me - it’s like a fierce energy that slowly crept into my system. Emotions. Strangely familiar, but somewhat foreign. Emotions are such common things in life , but why did I feel that I missed emotions so much?

I realized that the busy routine and path that I have chosen for myself has robbed me out of some emotions and made me focus on other things - definitely other things , that yes, I was already quite effective in making myself too busy to feel or even reflect. Success.

It turned me into someone else, and I like it. I don’t feel too much anymore, I now feel frozen, but without pain.

But why did I feel like I wanted to linger with emotions for just this day?

Music thawed my frozen state, and gave me some warmth. Not too much, not to the melting point.

Then tomorrow, I’d be back in my real life.

Well, I’d have some time for emotions tomorrow, too, if Babyface can sing through my soul.