Credit : Jay Tablante Photography

Well, let me first say that this must be crazy weather. My psychic has told me that I would be very fulfilled this season, but I had no idea that I would be going through alot and I mean ALOT to deserve the fulfillment as it hits December 25th. Haha.

First, the good stuff. I am so addicted to Marimar! I promised myself that I wouldn’t watch or even dare switch the channel to Channel 7 ( I literally ban people who come in my room from watching local TV on Sundays because variety shows make me so irritable, vibes just don’t mix ), but lately, when the clock turns 9, even when I’m still in the office, I open the TV and watch Marimar ! God, Marian Rivera is just SO BEAUTIFUL. Whenever I’d watch her, I just couldn’t believe how beautiful she is, and I am so envious of her figure. Well, we can call her my girlcrush! The storyline’s very exciting too, and I find myself screeching with “kilig” , just because Dingdong Dantes ( whom, I think , really improved immensely and became even more gorgeous this time ) and Marian Rivera just have sizzling hot chemistry. And I mean beyond sizzling plates!

The storylines of the original Marimar and the remake have been altered for more anticipation and uniqueness, and although there are critics that say that the idea wasn’t original at all, better do more original concepts, etc., I really don’t mind. I LOVE THE SHOW, and I don’t mind it taking 30 minutes off my sleeptime because I will watch it until the end!

Well, aside from Marimar as a part of my everyday routine, this month marks the start of my busiest days. It’s bazaar season again, and well, I think all my weekends are booked for bazaars that leaves me with no social life. Yes, nuh-uh. With that, I am cramming to prepare, and boy, cramming does not feel good at all! I doubt if I will ever learn the value of time management and preparing in advance, but cramming has just been my specialty since grade school, while studying for tests ( Teehee ). I’m glad that I’m sharing booths with my bestbud M as I can talk to her about anything and be entertained while I am manning the booth. I am also nervous, and I just hope hope to do good. I think that I should really do something about my life to make me feel that I have accomplished something – and I just hope that I am on my way.

With those thoughts simmering, I have more thoughts. With the busiest time of the year, I have not expected some things to happen that clearly affects my ability to keep it steady. I have discovered that it was fun to take your guard down sometimes, and just enjoy people around you, and I also discovered that the world can be unmerciful at times. Contradicting it is, but sometimes you just want to linger on the good stuff and keep your mind blank for a while even if the work is slowly piling up. There are also moments wherein you’d just want to bury yourself in work to forget the problems you have. There are also times wherein the past haunts you and you quickly react in a traumatic manner that you quickly shove it away, never again to accept it as a part of your life.

How do you start anew totally rejecting and nullifying your past? Would that be possible? How do you end things when you try to break free, you realize, that the grip was so tight on you? Lastly, what happens when you get irrationally drawn to that one thing that you have been warned about?

So many questions, well, maybe I can get the answers by watching Marimar? Hahaha!