When pleasant surprises happen in your life, your heart just skips a beat, as your lips finally twitch into a smile, thanking the heavens for the great fortune it has bestowed upon you. Been a good girl perhaps? Life is good. But when it is the opposite, it’s rather different.

It’s like a nightmare that you just can’t escape from, as you tirelessly shake your head with the hopes of waking up, as you realize that there is indeed blood drawn as you try to hurt yourself awake. What have you done to deserve such? You check. Turns out all your life, you’ve put other people’s welfare before yours, and now, even those memories won’t help you justify why you shouldn’t be the one wanting to run away. Far, far away.

It is such a sad picture for someone to get disillusioned with the way things are as he/she has always trusted one part of the world to be constantly right. The world could be a circus full of harsh elements that can do nothing but harm one’s soul, but that one safety place, one last haven, when lost, kills someone slowly day by day.

He/she has nowhere to hide, nowhere to cry, nowhere to rest anymore. No more peace.

The soul once whole, has now a hole that flaws the entire meaning of its existence. The view of the world’s already dented. Irreparable.

This someone needs to sleep. For a long, long time. Maybe when she/he finally wakes up, the nightmare would be all over.

A Hole in My Soul

by Aerosmith

Im down a one way street
With a one night stand
With a one track mind
Out in no mans land
(the punishment sometimes dont seem to fit the crime)

Yeah theres a hole in my soul
But one thing Ive learned
For every love letter written
Theres another one burned
(so tell me how its gonna be this time)

Is it over
Is it over
Is it over
cause Im blowinout the flame

Take a walk outside your mind
Tell me how it feels to be
The one who turns the knife inside of me
Take a look and you will find theres nothing there girl
Yeah I swear, Im telling you girl yeah cause
Theres a hole in my soul thats been killing me forever
Its a place where a garden never grows
Theres a hole in my soul, yeah I should have known better
cause your loves like a thorn without a rose

Im as dry as a seven year drought
I got dust for tears
Yeah Im all tapped out
(sometimes I feel broken and cant get fixed)

I know theres been all kinds of shoes underneath your bed
Now I sleep with my boots on but youre still in my head
(and something tells me this time Im down to my last licks)
cause if its over
Then its over
And its driving me insane

Is it over
Yeah its over
And Im blowin out the flame

Take a walk outside your mind
Tell me how it feels to be
The one who turns the knife inside of me
Take a look and you will find
Theres nothing there girl, yeah, I swear
Im telling you girl yeah cause theres a hole in my soul
Thats been killing me forever
Its a place where a garden never grows theres a hole in my soul,
Yeah I should have known better
cause your loves like a thorn
Without a rose