It was one night when the power went out.

I was about to be dismayed when I felt the comfort of the dark, and the longer the dark stayed with me, the more cozy I felt as I have heard the sound of silence caressing my soul and reminding me of the old days, when the computer, electric bulbs, and air conditioners were not even in man’s wildest dreams.

A feeling of nostalgia. What would I be doing in my past life, during this hour of the night, when the candles are unlit , the surroundings are all quiet, and all I could hear are the wild beats of my heart?

I reached for a pen and started writing. Oh, the darkness became not only my friend but also my muse. I was filled with inspiration as I wrote poetic words as if I’ve been writing them for a long time already.
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I think I’ve found the perfect voice that I would want to own if given the chance. I can’t sing, but I am a great lover of music. Well, who’s the lucky girl? It’s Sarah Bareilles.

I’m so obsessed with Sara Bareilles‘ music. Her voice enchantingly starts with low-key, and she sings her high tunes beautifully. Her voice is firm, and beautifully melancholic. In other words - I am addicted to her voice. It must be one of the beautiful voices that I’ve ever heard in my life - not in a totally aesthetic sense, but there is something about her voice that makes you feel that her voice understands and is in one with her emotions . Her voice also engages the listener to relate and feel the song- a direct stab to the heart. Her lyrics, which are self-written are also stellar, that she was able to capture the human emotion just perfectly, specially in matters of the heart. I could just listen to her two songs forever - Gravity and Between The Lines. I have been playing these songs in my mp3 player for weeks already , and it just makes me feel over and over again.

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This week was the most tiring week, ever. The SEMCON was such a success, and maybe a little bit too much of an information overload that it left a hole in my brain for days. I’d be talking about my great experience from it in another post, but let me blog about what I did today , as my memory is still fresh from it and I’d love to immortalize it and keep this memory.

After a quite tiring makeover session for my reseller, I had my dad drop me off to Rockwell to meet with my bestbuds, to grab a quick dinner before going to the Araneta Coliseum to watch Babyface , live in Manila. My bestbud J scored us free tickets, as she always gets free stuff for us like movie passes, products, and even discounts, but the catch was, it was 2 tickets in the patron area and 2 tickets in the Upper A area. Bestbud M asked me what seat I wanted, and since I knew M was such a senti fan, I told her that I was fine with an Upper A seat with Bestbud K. We bought food from Tokyo Tokyo , and ate hurriedly in the dark, and moving vehicle that we were in. ( Such a great meal! haha! )
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Just this morning, that I have requested the office to give me a leave, some sort of a day off ( even if this is a holiday ), I woke up and chose to remain quiet and not speaking for the first two hours as I surfed the net. Even if I’m not in my work state, I don’t think I could ever live without a computer.

Then, I chose to play a song - Sarah Bareilles’ Gravity. In my previous entry, I have expressed my affinity to this song as it touched my heart in more ways than one. I didn’t know that as I played it today, a rush of emotions came into me - it’s like a fierce energy that slowly crept into my system. Emotions. Strangely familiar, but somewhat foreign. Emotions are such common things in life , but why did I feel that I missed emotions so much?

I realized that the busy routine and path that I have chosen for myself has robbed me out of some emotions and made me focus on other things - definitely other things , that yes, I was already quite effective in making myself too busy to feel or even reflect. Success. Read the rest of this entry »

It’s supposed to be a cold, quiet night conducive to reflection, but the sound of rain , adds up to some noise, but makes it much more a reflective night.

I believe that I have survived the rainy days just fine, despite the occasional outbursts of discontent. Oh, I just so want more brighter and jollier days. I miss the gorgeous sunsets of Boracay that seduces me to stay in it forever.

I believe that a few more months’ worth of sleepless nights and nonstop working would take me there in no time. In order to escape this season’s gloomy and melancholic chants to my ear, I chose myself to drown , not in the sound of rain, but in the sounds of keyboards, phone calls, lively chatters with my newfound friends, and whips of the makeup brush. I just wish that my mind would fill itself with so much stuff that there would not be any space left for the idle mind to wander.
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When I heard this song, I just stopped, in disbelief, that there was such a song that perfectly captures my emotions as of the moment. Incredible.

“Fools Like Me”

Everybody go
The party’s over
I want to be alone in my head
In my bed tonight
You never show
-

Guess what -

You are my morphine
That kills my emotions
I want to wallow in you
I want to drown in you
You are poison
You are my slow death
and I am drawn to you.
You are my relief
You are my diversion
From the more painful stab
I had days ago.
You are my last hope
to want to breathe.
I’d rather feel pain from you
Than remember.

Remember when I said last time about not having more emo entries? Well…blame the mp3 player, that I’ve been playing this really nice and sentimental song, My Favorite Regret, as recommended by D. Come to think of it, alot of people want to make mistakes, this song starts with, “Will you be my favorite regret? Will you be my sweetest mistake,”, and I hear another song that starts with, “You are my sweetest downfall.” Read the rest of this entry »

As the second quarter of the year is about to end, I feel that my workload is getting more and more, with each business of mine pulling me in different directions, as I am trying to help myself from bursting.

And this is why I was given summer to enjoy my days in the sun - this is payback time.
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